~July 2007 K-1 Filers~

[Ovaltine Jenkins 5]

Is it just me or am I not the only one still waiting for Julez´s wedding pics?

[English Muffin 59]

Is it just me or am I not the only one still waiting for Julez´s wedding pics?

Nope, I'm waiting too.

[BabyBlueSusie 1]

Is it just me or am I not the only one still waiting for Julez´s wedding pics?

Nope, I'm waiting too.

[*julez* 124]

Is it just me or am I not the only one still waiting for Julez´s wedding pics?

Nope, I'm waiting too.

I am sorry!!!! So sorry! I mostly post from work so I forget! I will try this weekend, but no guarantees since my computer is currently disconnected due to the major home renovations to get it ready for sale! I think we will reconnect tomorrow or Sunday at the latest!

What you really should do is flood me with PMs to remind me!

[BabyBlueSusie 1]

Is it just me or am I not the only one still waiting for Julez´s wedding pics?

Nope, I'm waiting too.

I am sorry!!!! So sorry! I mostly post from work so I forget! I will try this weekend, but no guarantees since my computer is currently disconnected due to the major home renovations to get it ready for sale! I think we will reconnect tomorrow or Sunday at the latest!

What you really should do is flood me with PMs to remind me!

allow flooding to commence

[rae_and_scott 1]

Seriously, Julez, you asked for it.

Besides, how selfish of you in the first place! Don't you know VJ comes first?

[Jeraly 4]

Ohhh - student life sounds blissful - I just don't think I am clever enough ><

hogwash

Well I already have my BA and to do a MA and PhD as well... well I just don't think I have it in me >< Besides - I kinda want to go into something different but we just won't be able to afford it if I went back to college...

I mean how can you enjoy working all year round just to look forward to having 1 week of vacation or something?

You can't.

Yeah - these are my sentiments too - I figure I am just going to have to find a job I *really* love... Or set up my own business Then I can have the holidays I want but hopefully I will enjoy my work enough that I won't need to have too many And I can take my work with me if I need to

And what´s more, how are we supposed to use the 1 week vacation if we wanna see our family that lives so far away (spend 2-3 days travelling and flying and 3 days with the family I guess). Plus where is a week for spending vacation as a family with your husband/wife?

Yeah - this freaks me out too

[GeordieWife 1]

Hello friends!

I've been off the radar here for awhile since Peter got here. He's safe and sound and getting settled in our new home together. It looks like everyone else is getting settled too and we're all muddling through specifics like driver's licenses and looking for jobs. Peter and I went the the social security office this week...he was so cute...all giddy and feeling excited about doing something 'so american'. When we were done he was over the moon and all I could say was...'congratualations, now you can pay taxes WITH representation!'

We got our marriage license, and we'll be married in two weeks from today. We've been very busy getting re-acquainted with one another (It had been 9 months since we'd seen eachother face to face), so I haven't even been on the computer or talked to my family much.

I hope everyone is doing well and are all on track. I'll stop in a bit more often to give Peter a break from me...(er...me from him....he's been following me from room to room since he got here....such an adoring sweetie! haha! )

Take care all!

[StillThePrettiest 4]

awww, that sounds so lovely!

it'll be our turn in a couple of weeks, and I fully expect it to be a very similar story

[Jeraly 4]

I hope everyone is doing well and are all on track. I'll stop in a bit more often to give Peter a break from me...(er...me from him....he's been following me from room to room since he got here....such an adoring sweetie! haha! )

Take care all!

Oh that is sooo cool!! You excited about the wedding? It's so nice that most of us are on our way now

awww, that sounds so lovely!

it'll be our turn in a couple of weeks, and I fully expect it to be a very similar story

Aww - what date do you actually enter the US? Is he there with you now or not yet? Ohhh I want it to be my turn, if only to stop this horrible gut-wrenching nervous feeling

Ah well - back to filling boxes... can't really call it packing yet - it's more sorting out what I want to keep and what I don't

[StillThePrettiest 4]

Dave arrives a week from today - May 11

we both enter the US on May 25

wedding date almost definitely June 20

[Jeraly 4]

ohh you must be so excited!! How are you enjoying being with the fam and chilling out at last after this rollercoaster?!!

*Also updates spreadsheet with wedding date*

[StillThePrettiest 4]

it's great seeing everyone, and nice not to be responsible for anything right now (other people doing cooking and washing; SO unusual )

but I'm sleeping so much! it's starting to worry me

[Jeraly 4]

it's great seeing everyone, and nice not to be responsible for anything right now (other people doing cooking and washing; SO unusual )

but I'm sleeping so much! it's starting to worry me

Yeah - I can imagine it feels great - now you have taken the first step you shouldn't have a care in the world

As for being tired - I wouldn't worry about it too much. First of all you have the jet lag and secondly you have been running on adrenaline for so long now trying to get everything done, going through the whole visa process, interview, medical, packing, moving... it's a lot to take in and now you can finally relax and now you don't have that adrenaline, your body prolly just needs to rest

*hugs*

I think that was one of those super-long sentences

[Jeraly 4]

Ok - I'm having a real bad day. Not in total bad day but it's just kinda culminated in me totally freaking out to monstrous proportions and now Jeremy is really worried and I don't know where to turn to.

Ok - here's the lowdown. Came on today which doesn't help. So am hormonal. Packed some more things today. So am emotional. Then find out that finding a place to live has got postponed yet again.

For those that don't know, I have mild AS tendencies which means that where most normal people would freak out in most of our circumstances, I have a habit of taking it to a whole new level. Nothing really has changed but I am in hysterical floods of tears, telling Jeremy that I don't want to move, that I am so so scared of everything because I have nothing concrete to focus on, and so many changes to cope with, with nothing stable. And I just snapped.

The stupid thing is in my head I can kinda think things through rationally through the hazy mess that is my emotional state right now. I know that things will work out - they always have a way of doing that. But right now I want instant gratification. I want to *know* that we have a place. I want to *know* that I am going to get over the emotional trauma of ripping my life as I know it into shreds and trying to rebuild it again with the person I love. I want to *know* that I am not going to spend all my days crying because I miss my family so much.

But until I am there I can't.

I am just so scared and frightened of everything. I hate feeling like this. I want to be the person I was when I was waiting. Full of hope and patience. Waiting for NOA2 I went through the impatience and came to realise that no matter how I felt, or what I did, it wasn't going to change how things are. But it would change how I felt about it and that could in turn make things seem better. I want to be able to do that again and I just don't seem to be able to.

I want to plan our life together. I want to visualise what I want to do with the house, where I want to put things, how I want to decorate - I want to plan it all out in my head, talk it all through with Jeremy... Right now I feel in the depths of despair and I just don't know how to drag myself out of it.

I don't want to feel like this. I *am* excited. I *do* want to move. But I want to feel like I do. It's just so confusing having such a mix of emotions - excited and full of hope for my new life with Jeremy, mixed with terror and panic over the unknown, combined with heart-rending upset over leaving behind everything I know and love.

I'm not sure what I hope to achieve by ranting at everyone but I just feel so alone right now. My mum has never been the most sympathetic of people - she will be very rational and tell me all the things I already know in a logical manner. Jeremy has had to go to work. The adult AS community on facebook... well I don't know anyone there really so I wouldn't feel so comfortable offloading...

I don't even know how to end this in a coherent manner so I'm just going to leave it at that. I'm tired as well which doesn't help. Tomorrow is a different day and maybe a night's sleep will make things seem brighter in the morning.

Love you guys

*hugs*