Unnatural

[Mand 1]

I don't know what to say Rebecca, except I hope you get over this slump and come out stronger. I can't give any advice, as I am the worst in the world for trying to relax my mind, which goes about ninety miles an hour on a slow day. Best wishes to you and Wes

[NimoMN 0]

Hello,

Not sure if this will help you, but it always helps me when I am feeling stressed. It is a very long poem, but it is a good one. So here goes......

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann 1952

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly;

and listen to others,

even the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,

they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain and bitter;

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;

it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs;

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals;

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially, do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love;

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyone a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be,

and whatever your labors and aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

Take care and I wish you all the best!

[rebeccajo 14]

I love the Desiderata.

But here is my all time favorite

Comes the Dawn

After awhile you learn the subtle difference

between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

and you learn that love doesnt mean leaning

and company doesnt mean security

and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes open

with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child.

and learn to build all your roads

on today because tomorrows ground

is to uncertain for plans, and futures have

a way of falling down in mid flight

after awhile you learn that even sunshine

burns if you get too much

so you plant your own garden and decorate

your own soul, instead of waiting

for someone to bring you flowers

and you learn that you really can endure

that you really are strong

and you reallly have worth

and you learn and learn

with every goodbye you learn.

Edited March 21, 2006 by rebeccajo

[TracyTN 237]

That is awesome.

[rebeccajo 14]

Today was a little bit better. On my way to my boring office job, I dropped Wes by the hospital and when he was done he went on out looking for work. He mailed applications out for his field (IT), but also responded to an ad for a position in the classified dept. of the local newspaper. Then he went walking on down to the job service, and on the way saw a big 'NOW HIRING' sign at Bob Evans - he said he decided 'what the hell' and went in there and filled out an application. He filled out an app at the job service for Blue Cross/Blue Shield. He went to WalMart in the afternoon and put his details in their job machine.

When we came home after 12, the notice was in our mailbox for me to go down to Public Debt on 4/8 and take the CASP test - maybe someday I'll get a government job. Also our state tax refund was in the mailbox.

We made big burgers for the kids for dinner. Sitting here now stuffed enjoying a cup of tea and waiting for American Idol to come on.

Basically just trying to breathe and not be so gloomy.

[TracyTN 237]

Good day it sounds like.

"Breathe.......

breathe in the air.......

don't be afraid to care......

leave, but don't leave me....

look around

choose your own ground.

Long you live and high you fly

smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry;

all you touch and all you see

is all your life will ever be........"

Just one of my favorite songs. Made me think of it when I read the last line of your post.