Nullaccount,
i have seen your posts, and I am in a similar situation. You need to guard against assuming the worst about your application. I know it is difficult, when we really don’t know what is going on behind the scenes. Our applications may well be sitting in a stack on someone’s desk, and will be processed any day.
I have become skeptical about believing any “timelines” that are put out by websites and Youtube channels. They are all guessing, and some may be more educated guesses than others.
I talk to my fiancé every day, and that keeps me focused on what is good and positive in my life. Hope you can find a way to do the same.