I need advice about what I should do and what are my options.
So I met my husband in 2014 while I was on summer exchange program. We used to work together. I wasn't really interested as I didn't consider long distance relationship so it was more just fun. The following year I came again, he picked me up from the airport and we continued to hangout throughout the summer. I still didn't really consider it as smith serious for the same reasons. Too far. Though of course I liked to be around him, otherwise why would I do this. We continued talking when I was back to my country and he really wanted me to visit him again. But it was awkward to me to come again. And invited him to my country. And he agreed! And started a long visa process (he needed visa to visit my country). Finally he got it and planned his trip for beginning of 2017. He came to visit for two weeks. And those two weeks were great! And I could tell he is taking me serious and I started to take him serious too. He made a huge move! I introduced him to my family and everybody seemed to like him. We flew out to other city in my country for a weekend and he proposed with a ring. And I said yes. If we could live together then its great! My main reason why I didn't take it all serious in the beginning no longer exist. So we spent two weeks together and he left... As soon as he came back to USA he filed a petition so I could apply for K1 visa. The petition was approved and in September my visa was also approved. In December, 2017 I came to US to live with my husband. We went for holidays to meet his huge family and then came back to the state where he lived. We lived with a roommate and it was actually hard. We got married in January, 2018 and I filed my petition for GC. So we were living with a roommate and it was not easy. And I was not added on the lease either because we didn't want to pay more. We went through lots of stuff In February, 2019. I almost got raped at some place while I was where with my friends (long story doesn't really matter) and then I got sick with complications. It took me for about 2 months to finally recover. My husband had evening shifts so it was feeling really bad and lonely in the evenings. For a moment I thought I would just go back to my country. As it was difficult to handle. I also didn't live with my husband before so it took time to adjust to him and I really loved him and wanted to work it out.
In June (in 6 months after filing) we had out interviews and we really didn't have any proof besides photos and chats. And out trip to his family. I mean what else I was suppose to have? I couldn't have a job or anything. We were approved but she said we need more prove on our next interview. When she asked why we decided to move to USA and not stay in other country, my husband said that I wanted to live in USA which is not really truth. I liked the country but I would never move here without a bug reason and the reason was him. I had a really good job back to my country. I am actually a medical doctor... Everything was settled there.
So we got approved. Then we got a common account and also a common credit card. In October we moved to our place and it was so nice!!!!! Ah... Hahah such a big difference and I also got a job so it got so way better! everything was so good for a while I coudln't feel any happier!
So my husband he is a weed smoker but I never liked it. It was ok for me if he smoked once in a while but since I got a new job and started to travel for my job, the amount of weed he smoked increased. Now he smokes every day..... Looks like while I didn't have a job I just "controlled" him but now.... We started to fight about it a lot but nothing changed. Expect that we got even a notice that someone is smoking in our apartment!! And he really doesn't care. Everytime we try to talk and discuss smth he never wants to talk says everything is fine and I am just overdramatic. He can just start to ignore me. And I become emotionally unstable. Because instead of a dialogue my husband just ignores me and I have so many weird thoughts! I started to go to the counselor... When I asked him if he wanna come with me he said that he doesn't have a problem and if someone has a problem is me. He sees just his point of you.. And if anything happens he just blames me. If he drops something it's just because I was not supposed to put it. And I starter to blame myself for everything too. But I can't go on like that. That drives me crazy! If he is not right, and I try to talk he ignores me and then show up late without saying anything. And goes smoke weed right away!
So I decided to be like him and just did my stuff, worked met with friends. And he thought that I am doing smth bad and instead of talking he registered on a dating app.... It happened just like a few days ago. IT is so disrespectful!!!!!!! I saw that on the history in the browser but he also admitted later. Of course at first he tried to lie. And he said it is because I act weird not him.
Him smoking weed so much made him so crazy. And I just can't handle it for health reasons. If he is not working, he is home just playing video games and smoking weed. If we fight, he goes to bars and who knows what he is doing there. And that's not how I wanted to live my life.. What he is doing is not nice, but what pissed me off that he makes me feel like I am the reason that bad stuff is happening in our life.
I want to divorce but as I finally got my life together I don't want to go back to my country.
What are my chances to be approved if I divorce?
We have common bank account, credit card, lease, he is on my work insurance bills are on our names. We went back to my country in October 2018 for my brothers wedding. His car is just his car, he had it before we got married and he is trying to pay it off. We have photos together. We also plan to visit his family this month as his sister is getting married. Friends so us together. We filed taxes jointly for 2018. But We got married only 1,5 year ago and I am a resident for a year by now.