Cheyenne

I, too, find myself laughing when someone I've shoved & hit several times "kinda jumps" in fright (and most likely, intimidation) when they see me.

get home and benny is out back smoking. I stand at the back door and he finishes his cig. He looks towards the house and walks to the door. He kinda jumped when he got to the door cuz he did not see me. I burst out laughing.

I found this page very helpful after I was married. I'm not sure how current the information is since it was over a year ago that I was here. I do come back time and again to review certain information. Hope everyone is doing well.

http://www.visajourney.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=109

Thanks Jean and Sarah and all of the other lovely ladies that have responded. Today was a good day as Hisham and I were able to talk more than we usually do. How do you all communicate with your man? Sounds silly, but sometimes I get on these kicks where I will send him a letter every single day. Most about nothing at all, some are just doodles while I'm sitting at my desk. But mostly they are just to let him know that I am thinking of him and that he is my heart.

As for the invisible people holding our fate in their hands, I just pray for them. I pray that they are given the wisdom and the insight to do what is right for our case. I know we will be victorious in the end, that is what keeps me positive.

I am so happy that I found this forum again. It is such a blessing and came just when I needed it. Thank you so much ladies. I truly enjoy being here and I greatly appreciate your reception.

That is understandable, and even if you don't contribute often you can still be part of the group and learn a lot from these women. I'm sorry about your shyness... it's good to see that Hisham has helped you and I'm sure that when you are together here you will be so happy and become so confident that it will all go away.

Where are you from?

Take care,

Sarah

Sarah,

I'm in Florida (east coast) right now. You are right about once Hisham comes home, it will be just perfect. He is the only piece of my puzzle that is missing at this moment. I will certainly think about your yahoo group, thank you for the welcome. I didn't think I would feel this comfortable once I made that first post. It has taken me weeks just to get up the nerve to do that.

Don't feel shy!

We're all here for you and you are at home here trust me. There are so many nice women and men on this forum who know exactly how you feel and I would advise you to join the group and make some friends.

Also, do not give up and don't stop calling and writing everyone you can like I said before. Have you called Casa? You can call and inquire about your case. It takes some patience and persistence but you might feel better knowing whats going on. Same goes for DOS.

Good luck and don't be shy!

Sarah

Thanks, Sarah. My shyness has followed me around for most of my life. It's one of the reasons I felt so at home with Hisham, I have never felt more comfortable around anyone. Now around his parents, that's another story. lol I'm not really sure if I'm ready to join a group right now, I don't know what I would be able to contribute. On a more serious note, I'm a bit hesitant because I have a hard time around negative people, some groups tend to bring those out. I really just need to surround myself around peace, happiness, and praying.

I really appreciate your responses. Just knowing that there are others out there going through the same thing. I can talk to my family about it, but I don't want to worry my mother so much, she hates to see me so down.

And yes, I feel like I've contacted everyone and their brother. I just don't feel like they care that I am an actual person, I just feel the stigma of being in love with a man from the Middle East. I am not one to whine in such a public arena and am feeling a bit self conscious about it. I read about your Yahoo Group but was too shy when you started it. I've always been the strong one and feel that I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to end my relationship with my beloved, but is it really fair that we have to endure this?

I've been on this website for a little bit, but never had anything to contribute. Until now, I guess. I just feel like I am at the end of my rope. Hisham and I have been apart for so long now. Between his work schedule and mine we barely get a chance to speak. We been on AP since Jan 2006.

I pray every day, but I still find myself questioning if this is the right decision. Is there anyone out there going through the same situation or something similar? Maybe just someone I can talk to who really understands what I'm going through.

Thank you and blessings to all.