I feel u...it will come through its just the unknown reason for AP and waiting that gets to u...somehow even when u feel like u cant take it anymore God gives u the strength...shouldn't be much longer...one song that helped me was Hold On by Jah Vinci
Love the song also listen to g-whizz life I just love that song it sums up everything "life soon sort out" kind words from people who have been through it also make a difference