QUOTE(jmagayreh @ Aug 17 2007, 09:51 PM)

I seem happier? I have got to stop using those dancin smiley faces.
I know I am putting on a 'cheery, yes I am moving on face' but there is nothing happy in my life now. I wake alone, I drink my morning coffe alone, I come home from work and there is no one to tell about my day. I cry after dark and still have not washed his pillowcase. When I get in the house, I stay there for hours and hours, no desire to leave. Sometimes I forget to eat, or turn on the air conditioner, and find myself sitting in a 90 degree room. So, happier, no not yet.
If there was ever anything to get me out of the house, VIP seats at this concert will definately get me up and moving.
To answer your question, no, I would not have gone to this concert if Mohammed was still at home. We would have spent that time together, cooking or watching tv, together.
Jackie

When I said happier I mean you seem more like a free spirit. You are doing things to make you happy and not someone else and thats the way it should be. Just because I say you seem happier doesn't mean you arent hurting anymore but it just felt like you locked up your true personality in the closet to be a "proper wife" and it doesn't seem like it was you. Your personality has been shining through lately and I feel like that is the real you, maybe I'm wrong but thats just what I see.
And what I can't understand is if you love this singer so much and you are so excited about going, then why would you not have gone if you were still with Mohammed? Thats what I mean by locking up your personality.
I don't want you to take this the wrong way at all Jackie and honestly I am sooo happy to see you doing things to make yourself happier or at least to try.