DEDICATION: Mon Amour...Nhabek omri ya hanouni! It could not be here where we say 'goodbye', as I had only you in these last few (wonderful) months...I still see your face as I turned away from you in the airport... A teardrop of silence between us ... accompanying me in my trip a sorrowful thought: Will you still think of me? Will this be the last time I see my own reflection in your eyes? Will you wait for me? Could you wait for me forever?
I love you. And I loved you all along. Now I miss you, and slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end...this hurt.You are too far away, for far too long (already) I keep dreaming I'll be with you and never go. It's hard to breathe; I feel like I have stopped breathing.

You took my hand at our wedding and all our days from that moment were eternally connected. My heart is yours with each one of its threads..so protect it well houbi. We flew to the moon, straight onto heaven. We now take on the world and will be together forever (inchallah)...but remember dear pure heart, the honeymoon will last us all this lifetime (and inchallah the next)...

Now I am far away from you.There is no music.There is no sunlight.The world is gray. The clocks are frozen. And time's a traveller who's lost his way.

[b][i]I think back now, why didn't I protect you more, why didn't I tell you I loved you more, why didn't I tell you how much you mean to me. Life did not offer us much time, and with a night and day it stole me away from you. But now all I do is read Surat al-Yacine and make duúa that our time apart is short.

Where is that fire, that devotion that hurts? I would return right now if there was a way, to live again what was beautiful and good. I want to relish what I had from you, all that sparkled with brillance. To be happy again...

I'm half alive until the moment the airplane's door swings open and I walk through to meet your eyes. Then my world will start to glow, like a stained-glass window. And what was old and cold is warm and new. And so you see why I can never be away from you...





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To all my VJ friends: Well everyone I am back in the US...sadly enough I am back. I feel ready enough to leave and go back to Algerie.Even with all the drama that happened in the last months and all the new experiences I had leaving Algerie was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

I feel like I got invited to someone's house, for a dinner party or something and the time of socializing and talking is going on way too long...and I feel like I just want to call my husband to come pick me up!

Ok well I will posting some pics, as promised as I get settled here... bye and much blessings to everyone!

Henia

Welcome back Henia, even though you'd rather still be with your husband.
Insha'Allah the time will pass fast for you until you can be together again.

Thanks Melly...inchallah the time will pass quickly!

Oh baby I'm so sorry that you are sad. Take the time to mourn and to feel the hurt. Then after a few days try to be strong again because now is when you need the strength. That love that you share between you and the time that you spent together fed you to be able to pull through the next few months. Enjoy your daughter now and relish your time with each other. I'm sure she missed you much while you were gone and needs your love just as much as you need hers.

((((hugs)))))

True, very true Doodle...but still miss my family! While I was had one part, and here have another...when will i get my whole family togther? Hmm....let's shoot for January... Snaps the husband keeps saying come back by early December... Ye right!

Yo Henia wassup?

haha I'm so glad you're back and posting even though I know you would rather not be! I hope your trip was safe and that you and your hubster can be together soon enough. Kissies,
Sarah

Welcome back, Henia!

The first few days are the hardest, and then it gets a *little* bit easier.

That reminded me of:

"I know we've only known each other four weeks and three days, but to me it seems like nine weeks and five days. The first day seemed like a week and the second day seemed like five days. And the third day seemed like a week again and the fourth day seemed like eight days. And the fifth day you went to see your mother and that seemed just like a day, and then you came back and later on the sixth day, in the evening, when we saw each other, that started seeming like two days, so in the evening it seemed like two days spilling over into the next day and that started seeming like four days, so at the end of the sixth day on into the seventh day, it seemed like a total of five days. And the sixth day seemed like a week and a half. I have it written down, but I can show it to you tomorrow if you want to see it. "

Oh Henia that is so beautiful. Readjusting to being away from him must be so difficult after the amount of time that you spent together. As doodlebug said, give yourself time to mourn. It will be a sweet reunion when you all can finally be together. It will probably be sooner than you think. All of us ME/NA girls are here to help you occupy some of that time. (((hugs)))

Tanks Sarah... love the new avatar but whoooo is that? LOL

It's Bubb Rubb!

Thanks Jenn and Me&MyMoroccan...ye leaving definetaly sucks...way too much in fact...standing there, not wanting to leave, having nothing to say to each other...just hanging there in that embrass..hugging the life out of each other LOL! And the puppy dog eyes...

welcome back Henia - my thoughts go out to you - I hope you are reunited w/ your love again soon. We missed you if that's any remote consolation!

Henia,

Welcome back...

My heart goes out to you... I know how hard it is to come back...

I pray and wish that this time passes fast and you be together soon.

Who is the snaps is Bubb Rubb? Sorry I am square...not hip to the culture I guess! LOL

Ye I did not get that either, so just choose to ignore it...must be some inside thing...but I miss you all too...





WE ARE SHOOTING FOR A LATE DECEMBER REUNION...just in time to see my good friend while she is in DZ too and also just in time to spent the big Eid there...Keep your fingers crossed everyone...

NOURA: When is Said coming already?>>>>>> Did I miss that post? I pray inchallah sooooooooooooon!

We don't have a def date yet (no ticket purchased) but looking at probably mid-December... soon, inch'allah!

Welcome back I know how you feel when i had to leave my fiance from Egypt i was in tears i was so hurt i didn't know how long it would take for me to see him again. We had no idea at the time that it would be so long , and this hard. I miss him alot. And when i left the airport that day it too was the hardest thing i ever had to do before ever in my life. He just stood there in a distance looking at me. But i know that all this time that we have been apart has really taught us about love, and to never take love for granted. We will be together insh'allah i know that because we were meant to be together. I would wait forever for him and he would for me. But i feel your pain its HARD i have not seen my love in 10 months. So be strong and i wish you both a safe and enjoying reunion soon. What you wrote was beautiful. I will pray for you and your husband to be reunited soon. Insh'allah.




AJ1

Awwwwwww Henia what you wrote was so sad and yet so beautiful....

I think a lot of us know exactly how you're feeling

But I am so happy for you that you will be back together again next month. You are very lucky, really, to be able to return so quickly. Insha'allah the time apart will go very fast, and soon insha'allah you won't have to ever leave each other again.



-MK

Jenn I thought it was funny! I'm trying to figure out where I have heard that before. It made me laugh.

It's from the movie "The Jerk". lol

Sorry to confuse everyone!

It's a quote from The Jerk with Steve Martin. He's totally in love and he's explaining how he's felt during the first month of his relationship. If you haven't seen the movie, you should!

Oh man I love that movie!

My favorite is when he asks his big black mama "you mean I'm gonna stay this color?"

Welcome back, Henia. It takes me about two months to get used to being without my husband without missing him as much as right when I come back. You'll be back even before two months are over, so, enjoy American toilets while you can !
I'm not trying to minimize your pain - i understand it all too well! But there's some things you must have missed from home - for me it was taking a real shower instead of 'Moroccan shower' with a bucket of water and some other things.

Look at it this way, your daughter missed you too and she needs you too! I don't even know if i'll even go again and it's been 6 months already. I'm going crazy over here and don't know when i'll see him again.

And yes, as somebody else said, you're lucky (even thought you might not feel that way now) - you're going back soon! But I understand every word you wrote, and I know it's very hard for you right now.

(((hugs)))

Glad you had a safe trip back. Gosh, I remember those moments at the airport and then the few days back home. I totally understand what you're going through. Hopefully the time apart will be short.

Well to honest, I cannot really do this, but we are doing anything and everything just to get to this point... I am giving up alot, but it seems to me like a small sacrifice to make for the greater good. We keep thinking at God, doing our prayers and just thinking no matter what we have to keep our family together.

Thanks everyone for your warm wishes.



Keep me posted ok Noura... I wat you two to get together already....I m looking online for ticket prices, seems reasonable now..but of course in those Christmas hot dates the prices are crazy...

Hmmm thats why I didnt know it...never saw that film,,, is it new or older one? I guess I will check it out since I got alot time on my hands now...

I was trying to think on those little things I didnt like about ALgerie like the showwer and such but still with all that I had to deal with I would not have chnaged even one thing.... I was thinking to return by Jan...but my husband seems to want to aim for a mid-Dec return...Whoo whooo...maybe we will make it..maybe not! He wants us to be there for the big Eid... I didnt even think on this, but seems he is...LOL! Telling me he is not going to be without his family (again) on a Eid... Ye dont I know this feeling!

Wow Aymerlu.your avatar is freaky werid yet cool!! I keep wanting to stare at it

HI Henia! Welcome back! I hope you had a good trip home. I know you are going to miss your hubby, but ou'll be seeing him soon again. Inchallah. I hope everything is going well with you. Take care.

Janine

(((((((HUGS)))))))))


Henia...

What you wrote was beautiful...really touching. I know exactly how you feel. I think most if not all of us here feel you. It's sooo hard to be separated from the one you love. I don't know what to say to ease your pain. I just hope you and your husband can be together again soon inshallah.

Welcome back habibity!!!!!

Thanks Moody for your kind words...give me a call soon! Is that one of your boys? So cute...