I won't put the "Muslim warning" on this. I don't want to qualify it. I want to share something that happened to me today. For the sake of not annoying board members I will skip most of the details.

I am having what is probably the darkest day of my life. The reasons don't matter. I'm not looking for attention or sympathy. It just is what it is.

I was sitting numb in the silence of my apartment even unable to think anymore thoughts. Hope had drained through the floor and into the ground. There was a knock at the door and it startled me. No one comes to my apartment unannounced. I went and looked through the peephole and there was man standing there who I didn't know. I looked at him hard to try to figure out just who he was but gave up and opened the door.

"I have a package for you. Be careful. It's heavy."

The mail man. Very strange. They don't deliver the mail to the door here. We have stalls of mailboxes at one end of the complex. They leave a note saying to pick up packages in the office. I looked down and the box said "CAIR".

It was the quran.

I have not had mine since I left Mohammed in Egypt. I left it with him for reasons I don't need to explain. I miss it terribly. Yes I can read it online, etc. but maybe I'm just old fashioned. I adore sitting with the BOOK. I never went and bought a new one because I just can't bring myself to do that. My first quran came to me at a similar time in my life when I was not Muslim and not considering it. I have no idea why I received it or who sent it. Just a box at the door from the Saudi Embassy in Washington containing a beautiful copy of the quran and nothing else. Not even a note. I didn't know the first thing about Islam but I read it. During the course of that year it changed my life. This is the quran that is now with Mohammed and he knows the importance of it to me and why I left it with him. I say I can't just go and buy a quran because in my own little twisted reality I asked Allah to bring it to me again if he feels I'm still deserving. Today I don't feel alone or unheard.

Alhamdulellah. It's all I can say. Thank you, God.

I say Allah is watching over you...take it and feel safe with that... fantastic story .....

I am touched.....

That is just awesome! Thanks for sharing.

Meriem

Jean, mine came today too... it is huge & heavy. I was just stopping at home to drop off some groceries and carry on w/ some errands, so I have not done anything but open the box to admire it, barely touching it, not taking the wrapper off of it until I have time to clean up and dedicate *real* time to adequate perusal. I was so excited! We must have ordered it at the same time.
All I can really say is ***ALHAMDOULILLAH*** I think we all needed this right now.

Mash'Allah! This is definitely a message for you, cherish it. Allah is with you ukhti, and do not ever forget that, may he safeguard you always. Reading this touched me today and made me smile inside, shukran for that. Ramadan Karim!

~Kiyah~

Afwan. Ramadan Kareem.

That is a wonderful story, very touching, thank you for sharing with us.

... and it continues to get weirder. After Mohammed called tonight from skype the stupid internet went down. The phone rang again and I answered it thinking it was Moh. It was my son. He said, "Mom what's wrong?" I told him nothing I was just waiting for Moh to call me back. He said, "But what did you want?" I was confused. He told me the phone rang there with a very odd ring and displayed my number so he answered it. That was when it rang here. I didn't even touch the phone so this has me creeped out. Maybe time for a hot bath and bed?

Bismillah Mashallah Jean! You story get alot of brightness into my life. Thanks alo sister for sharing.., Jazak Allah Kheiran!

Wonderful for this to happen in this holy month of ramadan....im so inspired by this!!

Michaela

Your story toucned my heart as well!

Hang in there my dear! As I always reminded my husband...SOON!

Hugs

chi

I know what I'm about to tell you Jean is not the same, but my husband got a package full of books in English once from a University here and he never even wrote to them or asked them for anything. They were nice books and he kept asking me if I did that but it wasn't me either.

Your story has more meaning of cource...

I just wanted to let you know that I still keep you in my prayers and one more person from this post who just recently sent me a PM that I still didn't reply to, sorry.

Long time ago I studied astrology and it teaches that whatever happens - will happen when it supposed to, not when we want to. It's another way of saing what others said to you here... inshallah it'll happen for you too

All I can say is WOW... I was not planning to visit VJ today... here I am and reading your post. Allah is watching over you...

Hope will come back to your life soon.

((((((HUGS)))))

Yasi