Dear God,



I want to say I am sorry for how I behaved the other day when I posted in a forum. I am under a lot of stress at work, my son’s abusive father is taking me to court and I can’t afford a lawyer and I should have stayed away from posting as I promised myself I would unless it was to encourage, support, or help. You know when I returned from work Elijah asked how mediation went and if he had to still go to supervised visits with his father. How do you tell your son that he still has to visit he dad who threatens, puts him and his mother down. I am working 10 to 12 hour days to make up for time I spend in mediation and court this week. I have no more earned benefit time, because I was in accident at the end of January and still have not healed from the trauma to my back and neck. I wake up every morning with headaches, stiff neck and soar back. When I returned to work I read an email in a coworkers bin discussing ways to fire me, because the accident happened on company time, which created a workers comp claim that is causing company money. I was up at 3:00 in the morning worrying about court the next day. Despite my head ache and pain I have to be at work at 6:00 a.m. This doesn’t even count the visajourney I am on. I should have never even logged into visajoureny that day. I thank you God for the strength to keep going and your open heart and ears today. Luke 24:47; Acts 2:38, 3:19, 17:30



I had just finished reading a post by tony and tess about posters thinking and being righteous, which I agreed with. Then I read a post where someone said staying away from scammers was common sense. The post got me upset, because it is not common sense.



I know you expect excellence, but how can I ever be that in this flesh?



GOD: 2 Pet 1:5-8





What should I say to the posters who thought it was meant to hurt, question my quest for excellence, and my love for you?



GOD Mathew 7:1-5



I am sorry to anyone who I offended the other day with my post. No excuse is acceptable! I just wanted to give you all an understanding of how life gets in the way. I did not tell you for sympathy or forgiveness, because GOD knows I wake up everyday with full intentions of fullfilling his dreams for me.

Jehovah God does not expect excellence in us, in fact he knows we are imperfect humans that require his constant guidance and word. Jesus during his ministry on earth always said he came to teach to the sinners not the rightous becuase he knew we were all sinners in need of our heavenly fathers. That is why he called us sheep without a shepard. God asks us to do the best we can, to follow him and do what he asks of us, and to have faith. Becuase faith without works is dead.

So do not be so hard on yourself. Look to what God requires of us Mathew 28:19. Continue to take in knowledge about his son Jesus Christ, becuase he is the best example of how to truly serve God, and have have faith. I am sorry you are having such a hard time, in fact we all are 2 Timothy 3:1, but Jehovah God sees our struggles and he has told us he will not allow the rightous one to totter Psalms 55:22

PS: I wasnt trying to hijack your thread but I saw you were a bible reader by your post and thought you woud find these scriptures comforting.

I have always found strength in what Solomon said in the book of Proverbs 3: 5 - 6.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.

If you could just surrender all your problems to God and be at peace with yourself, I can assure you that those areas that seemed impregnable will become accessible with ease. But look at the catch in Philippians 4: 8 - 9
These are the things that must always occupy your mind inorder for you to achieve peace and grace that only comes through Jesus Christ. It is not by works of righteouness. God bless you

Peace and Blessings,

I just read your post and my heart goes out to you. You are HUMAN, everyday is a struggle and we all have to stay prayerful in these time. So you posted on here out of anger. OK! We all make mistakes. You can apologize until you turn blue in the face and people will still judge you for whatever reason. I avoid posting on here too much because I see that people will personally attack you on VJ even though it is supposed to be a place for refuge and advise. They attacked another sister on here 4theloveofhenry when she specifically only tried to give her advise and opinion. So I tell you to keep you head up. Move forward and I will keep you in my prayers that all works out with you and your job, son and your journey. The Creator will not give us more than we can take... EVEN THOUGH we feel like we are at wit's ends. If you give in to all the negativity, then Satan has won. He doesn't want to see us happy, prosper and do God's will. Know that your purpose is BIGGER than all of this here. Don't let VJ, Ex-hubby, work or anything other negative thing bring your spirits down, KEEP doing your best.


PUSH- Pray Until Something Happens!!

You are loved!

Thank you for taking the time to spread encouragement and support. Your kind words are appreciated and read with an open heart. This situation with my son’s father brought me so close to GOD. I have made it over another stepping stone. I thank God for that step back so I can take 3 steps forward.



I just wanted to let people know that posting on a board is not the same as communicating in person. There is not chance to look up and say..I am sorry I said that. Or someone understanding that it didn’t mean to come out that way, because they already know what I am going through.



Not one person thought…wow, I wonder what is hurting in her heart that made her say something like that. When kids say mean things that is what I try to teach my son. Wow, I wonder what is hurting him that made him pick on that kid.



Stay blessed.

Missy